17 October 2009

ON TENTERHOOKS

I haven’t doing much in the way of photography lately. There’s both a good and a bad reason for it. The good reason is that I managed to ruin one of my favorite lenses beyond repair, which I have yet to replace. The bad reason is that I just haven’t been getting off my ass to take photos with the camera and lenses I do have.

Perhaps I’m coming down from having broken up with my girlfriend, which is never fun. Even though I wasn’t feeling any romantic interest in her anymore, there’s still a bit of a hole in my world which a person once filled. She was a fantastic companion, and in that respect I miss her horribly.

I’m only now starting to feel restless. It’s definitely a byproduct of my loneliness, coupled with the fact that I’m finding myself suddenly with an incredible amount of free time. This restless of spirit is good though; it’s reminding me that I am — first and foremost — a creative being.

I’ve come into a little bit of money due to a freelance project. Perhaps I ought to replace (or upgrade!) that favorite lens. Maybe it’ll serve as the impetus to get me off my feet, to get me moving again. If nothing else, maybe I can get back into the habit of carrying my camera with me wherever I go.

It’d really be nice to be excited about making something again.