Little Bill

I’ve been struggling with this post for a few days now. It was riddled with clichés and, later, analysis of them rather than the topic itself. And what exactly is the topic that I’m getting at? Breaking a promise.

You could see how I’d get into spending more time analyzing the clichés rather than write about the topic. My word is my bond, a promise is a promise, and blah blah blah. It was my way of avoiding writing about it just the same as I’m avoiding the action itself.

But that’s what I have to do. I have to break a deal with someone and risk my reputation as an honest and honorable man. Here I am on this site, writing about how I’m not a person of half-measures and then playing the hypocrite, doing exactly that: not following through on my own commitment.

I came to my decision when weighing options. I’d found myself at the end of my rope. I’d felt backed into a corner. Cliché, cliché, cliché. And I needed to get out. I was unhealthy and I needed to get out of a bad situation that would only have gotten worse.

So here I am, about to break a promise, and I hate having to do so. It was a poor decision in the first place. It was a lesson I have learned and will continue to remind me as I make new deals in the future.

I’m not looking forward to the conversation I’ve got to have tomorrow.